It’s been a while since I wrote my last blog.
So this is my first entry for 2011. I guess I would love to share my 2010 experiences. My 2010 is full of decision making, new experiences, challenges and a new lesson to learn; all of it brought changes in my life.
The Decision Making
June 30, 2010 my last day at work. I decided to leave the company where I worked for almost five years and try something that I’m not sure of. I know for others it is a stupid move because today you need to be practical you must do things that will secure your future. But sometimes matigas ang ulo ko.. just wanted to try something out of my league.
When I got back from Singapore I decided to get my aunt (she’s a 4 yrs old child) from Bulacan to live with me. So I decided to be a mom, it’s really a new experience. Even though she’s not came from my womb I felt it doesn’t matter… I can be a MOM.. I hope a good one. I’m learning a lot everyday.
And the biggest decision I ever made is to start to move on… ON EVERYTHING… I decided to really help myself to have a peaceful life. Let the past to be past and start over. And I’m happy on my decision it really helps me a lot…
New Experiences
June 15, 2010 my flight to Singapore my ever first country to visit. It’s a short flight it’s like I just travel from manila to Infanta. But as a first timer on a plane I would say I was a little bit nervous and excited. My Singapore experience will always be special. It’s a great place. I learn a lot from this journey Its fun to know the culture of other country, to experienced their lifestyle, to enjoy their city (that really far different from mine), to taste their food (awtzz dami ko pa rin di nakain hahaha), to make new friends. And Im very lucky to witness their anniversary it’s really great, everyone there is joining the program, and the city is full of lights, the fireworks are awesome the best I ever see. Of course it’s not everyday that someone will always be happy I also have a down moment their. I try to look for a job their but I guess its not really my time. Somehow it made me sad, but not enough to enjoy the whole vacation. I really had a good time. Also one of the reason why Singapore is one of the country that I’m sure I will never forget cause I supposed to meet my hubby their one time when they had the chance to deliver some cargo but for some reason we didn’t able to meet. This really broke my heart. I cried all night I really wanted to see him. I felt really bad and somehow I hate him and myself also because why on earth this is happening, were almost at the same place.. gosh its really true that if its not meant to happen it wont happen.
Challenges
I discover that its really painful if someone you love, the one you expect to be the first one to listen to you will be the first one to say NO without giving you a slightest chance to explain. I can’t believe her reactions, the first thing I felt is dismay and to tell you frankly until this moment I’m not ready to see her. But somehow I felt more encouraged, challenged by what she did. Maybe for her it’s just a small matter but for me I consider it big, I think she did not consider the friendship. I felt I lost her somehow. The rejections, the encouragement, the things I lost and all the painful words that I heard. All the pain I’ve been through teaches me to do better next time.
Lessons learned
The only one that is always willing to listen and help is GOD.
Your real true friend is your FAMILY.
I learned that the only person created by GOD that will never leave you (sa hirap at ginhawa) and will be by your side no matter what. The one who will support you and encouraged you is no other than YOURSELF.
That’s my 2010. So much to thank for… and Im hoping a full of blessings and love 2011.
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